We used to be the cool aunt and uncle. The ones that let you eat brownies for breakfast. The kind that played board games in the floor, hosted dance parties in the living room and didn't make you take a bath. Yep. There was a general feeling amongst the shorter people in our life that the coolest place to be on a Saturday night was Uncle D and Auntie Heather's house. We have 3 nephews and 1 niece. And up until about year ago, we still held the title for coolest aunt and uncle. And then we ... View the Post
Divine Assignments
We had only, in the few days prior, begun to come out of the fog and shock of wrapping our heads around the realization that we had a 1lb baby in critical condition in ICU. And we understood very clearly that he was going to be there for a long, long time. It was around day 10 of Tucker’s life and we were beginning to learn the NICU. What each of the 10 wires or tubes were, what the beeps meant on the monitor, what beeps were more urgent and significant than others, the schedule of the NICU. We ... View the Post
The best prayers
Until a few years ago I had two great grandmothers in my life. One lived into her mid 90's and the other lived to be 101. We grow the women sturdy in our family-they live long, strong lives. I am still blessed with two grandmothers who are independent and very much a part of our lives. They both got to see Tucker recently and I was reminded that no prayer is more special than those of a grandmother. Except maybe a great grandmother :) She... can play any tune, on any keyed instrument, ... View the Post
The Very Hungry (sometimes angry) Caterpillar
"The mightiest oak began as a tough little nut that just held it's ground." Our tough little nut turned 1 last weekend. We celebrated in the most perfect way Tucker's 365 days. It was. Poignant. Triumphant. Beautiful. For a moment, sad. But mostly perfect. When T was in the NICU we read the Very Hungry Caterpillar book to him nearly every day. It was a story fitting for a preemie. About a very tiny newborn caterpillar who bursts forth on a Sunday morning and is, very...well, hungry. He eats ... View the Post
We love you back.
First of all, I was overwhelmed with both personal and public responses to my last post-thank you so much for your comments. I debated on whether to post about this struggle that is so personal. You made me feel less exposed by saying in a lot of different ways-"We feel ya sister." So from one sturdy girl to all you other make-up-less, pony-tailed girls out there-thank you :) So, this week I had fun news to share remember? Welp, as the world of isolation turns, the fun news was postponed ... View the Post
Ole Blue Eyes
January 9th. As of today, we've officially spent as much time at home as we spent in the hospital. Wow. The first 5 months were in slow motion. I remember thinking that first week in the NICU how LONG we had to go and how FAR Tucker needed to come. These last 5 months? Flown by. And in these 5 months, Tucker has grown himself a big. fat. personality. He is very curious. About things. About what we're doing. About my phone. And the computer. I love when we hear Tucker stirring in the morning. ... View the Post